Please mind your language..

 

watch what you say girl.. think before you speak.. be careful of what you are going to say because words can kill...

 

i did feel hurt by the words my friend said to me.. sakit hati.. now that even i feel better than before.. i can`t be treating her as good as before..  I might forgive you but I will never, ever forget..

 

my note: words are very powerful thing.. in a few simple words.. relationships can end, people can cry, hate or becoming angry...please actually think about what you are going to say or before the mean things come out... we should choose the words we are going to say.. or otherwise.. we will lose the best feelings.. there are some people out there really can't handle such a harsh word like that..

 

 

 

i "am" strong...

me..?! nampak jer kurus kering... nampak jer perempuan... but i'm strong ok !! yes..all mothers out there... we "are" strong. definitely yes we are!

 

just imagine..we.. the mothers.. on saturday we woke up at 8am.. our 1 yo boy cried.. requested to change his diapers... atau lebih hebat.. dia poo in the morning... alhamdulillah.. dia poo.. so we the happy mothers carried the 10 kilos boy to the toilet... at the same time.. the 4 yo sister also woke up already... ran to the toilet to "help" us... di situ sajer perang mulut already started... we finished cleaning up the boy.   smile  :)

 

its time to feed them then.. at around 8:30am.. we opened the nestum can.. 2 spoon full added with 2 farley biscuits, mix with hot and cold water... the boy started crying seeing that mum was so slow... "me, hungry....why mummy so slow motion".... then we feed the boy. he was happy.. really happy. and the 4 yo sister... craving for roti bakar and milo... she cant wait to be late even a minute... we ran and toasted the bread with butter and jam.. suddenly that day "i dont want jam" day.. . then we toasted new one... if only i could telan telan budak bertuah ni...

 

we left the fulled stomach kiddos.. their next agenda to bring out their toys then.. we let them be... our next task.. keluar udang, keluar cili boh, sayur hijau... mee goreng.. the father will wake up soon.. the mother also hungry lorr.... in either way... we also want to eat. so goreng goreng.... we boiled water.. and there they are... mee goreng and coffee on the table...  :)  mantap! the clock rang 10 times.. sudah jam 10am..

we heard the sound of shower from upstairs... soon the father will come down for breakfast.. the mother will dare not eat before him.. so while waiting we quickly grab the laundry baskets upstairs and ran down for laundry.. laundry nowadays is all at your finger tips.. push the buttons... pour in the detergen and softener..there you go... 40minutes.. done!now lets enjoy our mee goreng.. and kopi black before we hang our laundry under the sun... owh ?! the kids? barang mainan bersepah dah satu rumah... just ignored. mee goreng lagi sodap!

finished mee goreng.. we have dishes..ha ha !  the mother dare not leaving everything in the sink and have to take an hour to clear everything later.. so most of the time, the mother will do it on the spot.  then we heards the kids started to feel uneasy..because they need shower.. so kiddos... jom shower ! they would carry together all of their toys to the bathroom.. i really mean..ALL. and we can heard the 4 yo sister will asked the mother.. "what do you prefer mummy? teh tarik? milo? let me do it for you.." the mother will always answer milo... and the 4 yo sister will start with other questions.. and load of questions.. then the mother will answer... "cepatla mandi!!!" the tone?! definitely angry tone! the shower session minimum will take 20 minutes... when we get out of the bathroom.. we can see "what to cook for tengahari ?" at the clock already...

itu baru suku hari...........................................................................

see..i have to be strong.. we have to! we will always have other support InsyaAllah... my husband.. my mother and the 4 yo sister... they were and are always there to support... thanks.
 

jatuh jua...

ada ketikanya.. jatuh jua air mata ini.. sudah cuba untuk bertahan... sudah cuba untuk tidak menjadi terlalu lemah.. sudah cuba untuk berdiri gah tak mahu mengalah... tapi bila segala perit tidak dihargai.. malah di balas dengan kata kata tajam bagaikan pisau... di balas dengan tindak  tanduk yg tiada belas nya...maka.. jatuh jua air mata ini...

keciwa apabila sokongan yang diharap.. kata kata tajam pula sebagai balasan.. hina sangatkah diri ini ? siapakah aku di matanya.. belum cukupkah lagi segala pengorbanan ini... aku tidak meminta minta.. aku tidak merengek rengek... adilkah?

aku perlu lebih kuat.. allah.. berilah kami kekuatan dan petunjuk.. agar tidak menjadi sekejam itu... tidak mengecewakan mereka yang mengharap... tidak melupakan segala pengorbanan mereka.. tidak lagi mengharap!! sudah!! jgn lagi berharap..lupakanlah segala harapan... penuhi tanggungjawab mu... balasan yang adil pasti menunggu. InsyaAllah....